"Choose"

I was listening to one of the Christian Radio Stations while driving and they were talking about picking one word to base this next year on. Instead of making a New Year's Resolution, using this one word to spur you on or that will describe what or how you will do things this year. I thought about it for awhile and was reminded of a blog post of a friend of mine where she talked about "choosing" her perspective. It hit me like a slap in the face because of the condition of my own heart that the moment. I wasn't choosing a good perspective about everything we endured this past year and it was getting the best of me and making me a little bitter. That's so hard to admit but unfortunately it's the truth. I kept focusing on how it wasn't fair that I didn't get a normal pregnancy, a normal birth, a normal recovery. I would find myself getting a little upset if a pregnant mom was complaining about going overdue because I would've given anything to go overdue.

I hate that my heart was so bitter, this whole situation that God threw us in was supposed to grow me and help me to rely on Him which I think it did but as soon as I had the chance to look back on it all and get back to normal life I would start to get jealous of friends with healthy full term babies etc.

All this to say my word for this year is "choose." I can choose to be sad about the things I missed out on or I can be thankful I was able to be pregnant for as long as I was.
I can choose to wish I had a full term baby or I can look at my preemie and be thankful he doesn't have any problems that preemies have.
I can choose to be upset about the fact that Lincoln was born at 31 weeks or I can look at the fact that I never had to be uncomfortable and hugely pregnant.
I can choose......
I can choose.....
and the list goes on and on.

My point is this year my perspective is changing. I am going to "choose" to be thankful and look at all my blessings and not focus on the things I wish I would've had.

I'm sorry this post is kind of a downer.....I've very embarrassed about how I've felt and all my complaining.
So here's to my year of "choosing!"

What word would you pick for this year? I want to hear other's words!