Wow I can't believe I've made it two weeks here! Each day I'm here is a blessing because it gives Lincoln another day to grow bigger and stronger! I've had so many visitors and feel so blessed to be surrounded by so many people who care and love us SO much! For memorial day, Tyler's parents and Kelsey came down to spend some time with us. They wheeled me down to the courtyard and we spent the majority of Monday afternoon playing "Golf" (It's a really fun card game and very easy to learn). It felt so good to be outside and soak up a little sun for awhile.Since I've had two straight weeks of hospital stay so far I've had lots of time to pray for and think about our little Lincoln. I never realized how much love I could have for a little boy that I've never even met! I just love this guy so much and am doing everything I can to help give him the best chances once he's born. I know God has some big plans for this guy and is already using him to teach me things about myself I never knew before. I've realized just how selfish I can be. The first week I was here was so hard because I kept thinking about all the things that I am going to miss out on. I won't get the summer I had planned, I won't get to wear cute maternity clothes, I won't get to lay out at the pool this summer, ME, ME, ME. Wow can I get any more selfish? God's really teaching me that my plans are not HIS plans and that HIS plans are so much better for my life. If I look at the big picture, this is such a short time in my life and because of this sacrifice I am going to get to enjoy my little boy for the rest of our lives!
Thanks for sharing this, Marie. God is giving you great perspective. It's so hard when things don't go like WE expect. I got teary when I read about the things you were missing out on. I remember thinking along the same lines AFTER Ori was born. I don't get to hold my baby. I don't get to take him home. I don't get to breastfeed him (eventually I did). I didn't get far enough in my pregnancy to feel like I was going to "pop," etc. But I wouldn't change what happened for anything. God's plan was best and I love my little guy more than I could ever imagine. It was just very refreshing to me to read this and I'm so thankful that God is using this time and teaching you and that you do have such a long-term perspective. There will still be ups and downs, but know that you are loved and lifted up!
ReplyDeleteBeautifully written, Marie. It's amazing how such a tiny little thing can teach such big lessons. My children teach me something new every day.
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Thanks for sharing and keeping your blog updated! So glad to hear the good report! It is amazing how God can take some drastic measures to get us where He wants us, huh? Still praying for you all!
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