on my heart

my heart is all over the place.  I knew that it would be like this when we started thinking about adoption but I never thought we would pursue adoption through foster care.  Granted this is a very unique situation and I'm not even the one providing the foster care for this child that we want to adopt but my heart is already gone.  This little boy has stolen it and he won't give it back. :)  His case is all up in the air still and you never know which way a judge is going to rule.  All I can do is pray.  Pray God's will to be done in this little boy's life.  That he will end up with the family that he is supposed to (and of course I add in there, specifically that he would end up in our family).  But that is hard.  

Like I already said, this is a unique case and I get the opportunity to spend time with this little boy.  To get to know him.  Learn how to take care of him.  Find out things he's learning right now in PT.  Make him laugh.  Watch him interact with Lincoln.  

I am loving this. I am loving him.  I want the best for him.  So I place him in open hands, like I've learned to do with Lincoln.  We are not promised tomorrow, with our kids and I am not promised a future with this boy but I can love on him every opportunity I'm allowed.  

So that is what is, and has been, on my heart lately.  

I'm linking up with Casey's "what is on your heart."